To be honest...I'm not even sure what I exactly wanted to blog about. I just felt like it was calling me name saying "WRITE SOMETHING!"
So here I am...typing...still not exactly sure what words and ideas will flow from my fingertips.
God has pretty much been rocking my face off these last few weeks. It really all started with Youth Convention. I got to chaperone my high school youth group for convention cause they were short on help. It was my first one and it was SO amazing. Not only did God work in my own life...but He was SO present in that church...encountering young people...starting a movement. It was so inspiring.
Pat Schaltzline (sp?) was the speaker and the first night his sermon was entitled "Why is God so Mad at Me?"
The four reasons why we think God is mad at us are:
- Maybe the way we saw our dad while growing up
- Maybe the way we were taught in church
- Maybe you think grace is too far our of your reach
- The devil is a liar
Whoa. So often when we sin or we aren't living up to our potential in Christ, we think that God is disappointed in us. Or that He's mad at us. But He isn't. He is mad ABOUT us. He is CRAZY in love with us. He wants nothing more than to take our anger and our hurt and our frustrations and diminish them with His love, grace, and mercy. He wants us to turn to Him and cry out to Him. Whether we're angry and we need to vent...or if we're desperate for a move of God. He desperately wants to wrap His arms around us and let us cry.
God is desperate for us. But are we desperate for Him? I know I'm not always desperate. I sometimes go through life like it's a monotonous organized, step-by-step journey. Things become so routine and so...DULL. That includes my relationship with God. Or there are times where I want something more with God. I know that I NEED something more and I just don't go in deeper with God and find that something more
At Youth Convention...desperation set in. And I stopped listening to all the voices that were surrounding me...telling me that I don't have enough time in the day...telling me that things would never work out...telling me that there is something wrong with me...And I listened to the ONE voice that mattered.
I wanted to be desperate for God. And if there is one thing I have learned...it's that you can't fake desperation. You can say you're desperate all you want....but until you truly and passionately WANT it...when you want to see the move of God in your life so much it hurts...THAT Is when desperation kicks in.
God is desperate for you. Are you desperate for Him?
